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Living in a tiny room in a boarding house (? Männerheim) as a NEET with other deadbeats and alcoholics in Lucerne from 2010-13 because nobody will rent you a flat in this country if you have debts registered to your name. Took a long time to finally get a job because I quit my education. Browsing Krautchan was one of the few high points back in that life.

>>27736 Oh, and it taught me to not make debts in this country.

>>27737 >not make debts in this country Damn straight. Debts are for Americans and Southern Europeans. You may only get significant debnts to buy a house, and only if you can make a significant down payment. Funny to read Männer(wohn)heim again, last time I read it was probably about the early years of an Austrian weirdo and failed artist who was quite the bohemian from like 1918-1930 or so. I also sometimes walked past such a thing, but I think it was called more like "Obdachlosen-Wohnheim" or something. It smelled like Bernd's room after not changing the sheets for a couple of months.

>>27744 Living alone is the greatest blessing of them all. A shared flat must be horrible.

I can think of two. Civil service as a janitor helphelper for a shitty janitor, and fall of 2024 when gf of 4+ years left Bernd not long after his father died. The gf had always been problematic, so maybe that was for the best, still sucked though of course.

>>27748 Why do Bernds attract mentally ill gfs?

>>27751 My guess is that a lot of Bernd are themselves mentally "ill" or simply unfit

>>27754 Both of my e-gfs were mentally ill, I wasn't.

>>27751 1. Love does what it wants anyway (the "chemistry" was very strong in this case) 2. Don't want an uggo, so compromises have to be made elsewhere 3. Maybe don't recognize it well because of social retardation 4. Maybe it's somehow compatible with own mental retardation (this goes for both sides) 5. Too insecure to stand up to her and/or get rid of her For Bernd it was 1, 2, 4, and a bit of 5. I didn't let her walk all over me, but I also didn't break up after some especially egregious happenings.

Psychosis due to synthetic cannabis abuse in 2010 abd 2023. In 2010 it was jwh018 in 2023 it was hhc. I learned my lection.

A 4 years humanity degree I didn't care for. I didn't work, sometimes I wouldn't leave my house for a week sometimes and I still had good enough grades to pass. I spent entire weekdays stuck in my bed masturbating to porn, posting on IBs and watching shitty videos on the internet. I think it fucked up my brain a bit. It all ended up with me dating two very very unhappy girls one after the other who were also my first romantic partners.

>>27777 meh GET

>>27780 Dont do synthetic cannabinoids get.

>>27784 I won't take any other drugs either

>>27777 >Living in a tiny room in a boarding hous did you have like communal toilet and shower there? what where the tacit rules of using it?

>>27754 That has something to do with it. I had a gf who I strongly suspect would get diagnosed BPD. She was an absolute nightmare, but at the same time is the only gf I've had who felt emotionally relatable

My PhD towards the end fucked me up good. I was a wreck and stared decomposing mentally and physically. I somehow pushed through, I have a memory gap of a few months and I ended up with a full thesis and a degree. >Could you relapse in a similar situation? Not doing a second PhD, so no. >How did you overcome it? A lot of mental support from friends and gf.

>>27789 I think u quoted the wrong post.

>>27789 meant for >>27736 >>27798 tx but I also wonder what psychosis is like? hallucinations? erratic bahaviour?

Being full hikki and NEET for a while in my early 20s. For how depressed I was at the time, the memories are surprisingly good. And when corona came it almost felt like a return to form.

>>27789 Yes, I mostly slept during the day and played vidya at night so there rarely was a case when I had to and it was occupied. It was also cleaned daily.

>>27803 In 2010 it was like mania, stopped eating and sleeping for a week while feeling godlike until breaking down. In 2023 it was like Trauma, I have seen shit from the past that probably never happened and it completely paralyzed me.

when i was on kohl yeah i guess not much coming here

My father dying and consequently losing my job the same year.

Dropping out of my masters degree course and being unemployed for a year at my parents house in my late 20s. The family cat was my only friend at this point and I had very little by way of identity to hang on to. >Could you relapse in a similar situation? Yeah if I get fired then I will be fucked. I hate my job but I have little else. >What did those hard times teach you? I was basically unemployed my entire life until I landed a public sector job so in a way I was hardened to it already for the last time. I guess just the importance of long-walks for your mental health.

Death of a very close relative, minor memories still make me cry like a little bitch at times. Last when I recently listened some FFX OST, got it on release and the TV was in her room, so I played and she got hooked on the story while slowly paying more and more attention. Afterwards she completed the game once more on her own while I watched :3 damn.

My family gives a lot of money to my brother and he makes a lot of loans, and fucked our family.

Living with severe OCD. I am on medication now. I want to get off medication eventually but at least I know I won't relapse because I can always go back on it.

>What was the lowest point of Bernd's life? Got a taxi after a night of heavy drinking. Slurred my home address to driver. Spent last of my money on that trip and ended up on the opposite side of town. Dodgy place. Had to take an emergency piss. Taxi guy drove away. Finished, zipped-up, made a couple of wobbly steps into darkness. Woke up in a ditch at dawn. People helping me to stand up. Went back home across town looking like an extra from "Walking dead". >Could you relapse in a similar situation? Yes. >What did those hard times teach you? On nights out carry a piece of paper with my home address and Eircode on it. Most of taxi drivers here are immigrants. >How did you overcome it? By avoiding social media and wearing a hoodie/sunglasses when visiting that housing estate.

>>27777 I seem to be doing OK with HHC from vapes, it seems to mess with my mind less than regular THC actually. Notable differences compared to THC: - It seems to kick in much slower, My guess is that it needs to be metabolized before it does anything at all. - Other weed-like effects seem to be less strong except that it's almost as good as weed to make women's bodies look amazing and cooming feel about 3x as good as normal. - A notable thing that's also missing compared to THC is a strong afterglow on the next day, like everything feels a bit magical and full of child-like wonder. One of my favorite things about THC and what often makes me skip a day even if I have weed at home and the temptation is strong.